As I created a title for a new blog post, I chuckled when I noticed that I'd transposed the letters, and had typed My scared body.
That typo probably says it all. I used to be afraid.
As I have settled into supportive communities in Nanaimo, love, peace and joy have flowed in and replaced fear.
One of the developments I have noticed is how much I have been drawn to physical activity and how much I have been enjoying my body.
Last week I moved to a house from which I can walk to most amenities that I need. It has been a tremendous pleasure to walk. I enjoy the sensation of walking. I'm grateful for my comfortable shoes and for a body that is healthy enough to walk. When I walk, I notice so many things about my neighbourhood that would not be visible from a car.
Recently I joined a Tai Chi class, and have been enjoying the slow, gentle, but surprisingly demanding, movements.
Yesterday, Everybody Sings resumed after the Christmas and New Year break. It was delightful to participate once again in the lively singing, clapping and dancing. Shirley said it reminded her of kindergarten, and Ian said it reminded him of summer camp when he'd been a teenager. It sure is fun to be transported back to kindergarten or summer camp as an adult, or to experience them for the first time if you missed out as a kid.
Last night I tried Sacred Circle Dancing for the first time. I found it peaceful, meditative and grounding. I especially liked the fact that there was very little talking, and we dancers just gave ourselves over to the soft music and flowing movement.
Our Sacred Circle Dance teacher, Maureen Wild, said that dancing helped us to be conscious of our bodies, to feel connected to the planet and nature, and to experience ourselves as something other than "a head on a stick."
Food has taken on a new dimension for me too. I have just taken a break from typing and eaten a perfectly ripe tomato. As I sank my teeth into its juicy, red flesh, I reveled in the delicious taste. I was conscious of the earth, water, air and sunlight that had poured themselves into the tomato plant. I appreciated the tomato for giving up its life to sustain mine.
I am experiencing myself as a sacred being, sharing my life with other sacred beings, in a sacred time and space.
My scared self, in the meantime, seems to have kicked off her shoes and joined the dance.